My Dear Father-In-Law Passed Away!!

My last post was about my Dad passing away, this one is sadly about my Father-in-Law's (who I call my Uncle) passing away :(

My Father-In-Law was admitted to the hospital on the same day my dad was admitted that was Sunday 16th August, he then had some complications and got a chest infection then admitted to the ICU while my dad was a;ready in a coma. We did not inform my Father-in-Law about my father's deteriorating state to avoid upsetting him because they were very close friends and family.
At the time my dad's heart stopped my Father-In-Law was sent to have a CT Scan so he did not know what was going on in the ICU, that was coincidental!
He was on machines so they were keeping him asleep so it would not bother him and visitations were limited so we could not see him, only his sons were allowed..
Then on Sunday 30 August at around 6:30 pm I called to check up and was told he has just passed away.. it was so shocking I could not believe I would loose my two fathers one week apart!!

If this was a movie, I would have said they are exaggerating because it's too unbelievable.. I'm still in shock from my dad and now my second dad.. I was waiting for him to come home to tell him about my dad and try to find some peace talking to him and telling him how I feel, he always listens to me and gives me all the attention I need, he does this with everyone.. He had a very huge heart that accommodates everyone, he never pushes anyone away and would listen to everyone young and old.. He was very wise and righteous.. I had so many things I wanted to ask him and share with him.. I knew he was the best person to console me about my dad.. Now I lost him before I had a chance to do that..
His wife and children are so devastated specially his daughters (my sister's-in-law), I'm trying to console them the best I can and giving them the support and to advise them by chanting.. "Don't Think"!!

Even my husband is in a very bad shape, he is trying to be strong for his mother and his siblings but it's so very hard.. plus he is supporting me!!

So now we are both trying to support and console each other, and we both know that we each love both dads so very dearly.

Both my dads were the heads of their families.. meaning they were the eldest in each family so they are so popular and loved.. every one coming to console us starts crying :(

I just feel I want to curl up in a corner and die.. I can't think clearly anymore.. I'm still in a shock from my dad and now it's a double shock!

May God be with us all!

My Dear Dad Passed Away!!

I have been neglecting my blog for awhile because after I came back from my vacation I was not reading very much, I guess I didn't get into it yet again!

Then on Sunday the 16th of August my dad's blood sugar dropped for the second time and we didn't know why that was happening.. He is diabetic and on Insulin but this severe drops in his sugar level was new and after going into Hypoglycemic coma we admitted him.
They found out that he has renal failure and in need of Dialysis.. He became worse so he was admitted to the ICU and started Dialysis.. then on Wednesday morning he had a brain stroke and internal bleeding in his brain which accumulated in brain death.. his lungs stopped working and so he was put on the machine.. on Sunday the 23rd of August at 11:45 PM his heart stopped while me and my brothers were with him in the ICU..

It was such a tragic and painful 2 weeks, I am still in shock!! I cried when I heard the news on Wednesday and kept crying till he died.. then after that it was very hard for me to cry.. everyone around me is crying.. my aunts from both sides.. my cousins.. everyone!! Except me and my mom and my 2 brothers.. it's like we are the least affected although we are the direct family..
I'm writing this with not a tear in my eyes although I love my father so much.. he has been a great dad.. caring and loving and always thinking ahead..
Are we still in shock or denial? Will this wear off? Every time I start thinking of the memories I stop myself and keep chanting "don't think, don't think".. I don't know why I'm doing this.. I think I'm afraid to breakdown!

My hubby has been supporting me so very much, God bless him.. but he needs my support too.. His father was admitted to the hospital the same day as my dad and he is not doing very well .. he was admitted to ICU too and is still there until writing these words.. So I'm trying to support him as much as I can!
I seem to be forgetting a lot lately and not being able to focus on what I'm doing.. so I don't know when I will start reading and posting again.. I hope I would start doing so very soon because I want anything just to keep my mind busy and not start thinking..

I don't know if I made much sense in these words I just wrote but I just had to write it somewhere..